4 straight fucking days , I'm lazing around because my god-damn fever is up and down . Not bad enough ? I've been puking whatever I am consuming . Bloody shit . &Because I couldn't consume anything , I've been heading to the toilet . Why ? The damn diarrhea won't stop . It won't stop because I have to eat something before I take my medicines . &Being me , I hate to swallow because I'll end up puking it out . This is so ridiculuous . My grandmother said : ' Tu la , nak jaga badan sangat kan . Ini la akibatnya . Kau tu dah kurus . Nak kurus apa lagi ? Nak jadi macam skeleton jalan-jalan ? Itu tak lawa . Kau macam gini cantik , lawa . ' . Now , she is nagging at me to take my pills and to take a shower though I seriously think there isn't a need for me since I'm scared of the cold water - Ever since she turned off the water heater . Ass . But no matter what , she is my grandmother who is a nurse .

&I think , I just wasted your time .