Are you the one ?

Aku betul-betul ngak ngerti . Soalan demi soalan asyik bermain di dalam otak fikiranku . Namun , aku ngak mempunyai sebarang jawapan untuknya . Setahu aku , aku mahu seseorang yang boleh menghibur hatiku yang cukup terluka . Aku ngak mahu mempercepatin apa-apa pun krana masa menuntutkan . Setiap hari , aku berdoa dengan Tuhan agar aku tahu siapa yang cocok denganku . Aku akan bersabar menunggunya .

Oh wells . Today is so not my day cause I am guessing that I was in the midst of a mood swings . I got pissed and irritated so easily that I almost wanted to cry . Fuck . I have no idea why , but yes , I do feel like crying . Perhaps I'm putting too much pressure on myself .

I got so much going on , right now . Too much to think about . 2010 is starting a lil' rough for me , but I am hoping that it will get sexy - soon . I'll take my knock-out pills to let my mind rest , cause lately , I've been sleeping pretty late and waking up every hour . Mind not at ease .

Mamah , can you please come back to Singapore ? I need you by my side . I need you to tell me what to do ; Advise me . I need your hugs . I just wanna cry on your shoulders till I fall asleep . Mamah , I really need you . Please stay in Singapore and not move back to Perth . Ask Daddy to move here . I need you and the family . Please . A mother-figure would do best , rather than I depend on myself .