I'm a good student .

PS : I hope this won't be a long yet draggy post .

Can I just say that I am in between situations ? Not one or two , but three and more . If it is only one , I can deal with it easily and I'll be happy because I don't have to stress myself about it . However , having more means I can pick the best but feelings are concerned . &Hurting someone isn't something I enjoi doing ( unless he is an asshole like KK ) . I must say that I do like them though time will tell .

I wished I could use their initials but I won't , cause I don't want them to know . Let's just say , I like to play games and I don't make the first move . I got all the time I need , mind you . Love cultivates and never dominate . It takes time knowing someone and it takes time for someone to have the courage . Remember , if you are worth it , he will do anything just for you - even if it takes months . Take your time . There is still a long way to go . Trust me . The world isn't gonna end and there is more than meets the eyes .

Being in a dilemma isn't something I wished for , or even want to be in . But all this is fate and all I can do is to deal with it , maturely . I am a girl who pick friends , and yes , I am choosy . If I can't accept you as my friend , be my guest not to accept me , either . I don't mind . But if you are willing to be my friend , try and wait all you want . Perhaps , maybe , one day , you'll be my friend .

I'm always praying to Allah S.A.W. that I'm always doing what is best for me , rather than what I want . &I do know that He is always by my side , making sure that I don't make a mistake . Even if I do , God only wants me to learn from it and not do it again . Small things like this can change someone to be a better or even a worse person . It depends on one's individuality . And you can never force someone to change . Believe in yourself rather than listening to someone else . It is yourself you're dealing with .

2010 is a new year for me ; A new start to begin . If 2010 is going to be like 2009 , I'd rather fuck my life . But I , myself , control how I wanna lead my life . &I know , deep down , I just wanna be the girl that I was before - Papah's lil' princess : Not Bella in a vampire fantasy . Everything in 2009 is just crap / bullshit .

&I want my perfect kisser .