Up forever .

I have to be honest that being single for 4 months ( and counting ) is something I'm proud of because never have I ever been single for such a long period of time . Even so , I still can't forget the God-damn past because it haunts me deeply . I don't regret breaking up because my relationship with KK was never meant to be . I never did love him like how I expected love to be , nor was I even faithful to him .

If I could kiss a dude behind him without him knowing , it simply tells me that I have no love for him . Prolly because KK loves hitting me and making me feel fucked up low about myself - knowing my insecurities and weaknesses . However , that didn't make me lose myself because anyone who tries to challenge me , somehow make me a better person ( or shall I say , a better somebody ) .

And sometimes I wonder if there are any dudes who are a gentlemen and a charm because nowadays , dudes aren't like those dudes back then . It's tough for me to even put any trust on any of them . &Having said that their first impression is their only chance makes my game a lil' tough to score . If it isn't because of KK , such ' rules and regulation ' wouldn't have been created . But things change for a reason .

The reason is I have to accept that all dudes are dickheads who loves to sweet talk to girls and make them fall in love with them easily . I know if that dude is for real or not because I've been through much shits and I am pretty sure that I know what I'm putting myself into . All dudes who tries to fuck the fucking bullshits in me are total fuckers who doesn't realise that I'm not that kind of a girl because Encik once told me to let 'em dicks know who they are messing with . &Trust me , don't ever bark on the wrong tree .

I know that I gotta be patience and that on one fine particular day , the person whom I've been waiting for , will eventually come and carry me off . Okay , I know that sounds so fairytale but that is how I look at it . When I love someone , my family and friends have to accept him and going through such obstacle isn't easy because if you were to get rejected by my family or my friends , it tells me that you ain't the one .

God bless 'em souls who tries to date me . PS : I am not an easy girl you know because I'm a pampered yet spoilt princess . I'll be proud of you if you could take my attitude . Amin !