Mind my language .

One :
I know you got some-something bothering you and yet you don't wanna tell me ? I tell you everything that has been bothering me and even , anything that is up on my mind because you're my bestf. . God damnit ! And you call yourself my bestf. ? If you don't wanna tell me , then I guess we're better of as friends . Because I'm here to try to help you out but instead you're pushing me away ? C'mon uh , if you got something against my life , speak up . One thing for sure is that you're bothered with F. and I because I'm head over heels for him . You can't blame me because I deserve to be happy . Like you said , you want to see me smile and enjoi life . Then again , you're being ironic . If you don't like the fact that I am dating F. , say it to me instead of keeping quite . Fuck uh boy . I share all my dirty secrets with you and this is how you're treating me ? Thanks eh . &D'you know that I'm trying my best to put aside time for you and FTN - even when I am with F. ? Such sacrifices , you can't appreciate ? Look . I have had it . I am trying to change and whenever I do try to change , ada aja comment ini semua . Seriously dude , I don't get it anymore . Lucky you , I am not like last time whereby I pandang rendah terhadap orang . I accept people for who they are but I don't make it a point to accept them as my friends . Honestly uh Pit , I cannot take it anymore uh . Time aku baik-baik dengan semua orang , ada aja orang nak pijak-pijak . Buto uh .

Two :
I don't mind you spending your night enjoying , but put in mind that I am still here . Enjoi , enjoi juga . Tak kan nak enjoi sampai tak nak ingat tentang I ? I call you kerana I wanna talk to you for awhile since I miss you heaps . But you had to take your ego up high and not answer my call ? C'mon uh . The least you could do is to text me saying you're busy or something . Itu phone on vibration eh boy . No excuses . &Kalau I tak ' report strength ' to you , you punya risau , mak I . Look . It takes two hands to clap . And I don't even know if you'll be on time to meet me . Whatever it is , just leave me a text . Go and enjoi your night since it is still young .

Fucking shits . I'm not in my best mood at all and things gotta be on its worst side . Oh , what a day to talk about . I don't know if it is my mood swings because my period isn't due till the mid of the month . And I won't say that I am paranoid because I am certainly not . Perhaps , no one seems to understand the situation I am in . I make sacrifices and yet people don't seem to appreciate it . Y'know what guys ? Y'all can fuck your mum's and dad's arse . I hate the situation now and I swear I hate it . You're all such ma'fuckers .